secret...

i nvr talk bout it.bt i will now.
its sometg bout relationship.
well,i had 2 experience on guy gal relationship.or should i say i pakto-ed for 2 times b4?
my mood getting better...so dis wont be so emo ba...
was i an emo guy last time?
i forgot.i dont think so.bt now i m

okie.how to start....
my excuse for breaking up wif the 1st 1 is religion,for 2nd 1 is ldr.
i accepted my excuses for so long d...bt sdnly today,when i was emo-ing again...i realise that i actually lied to myself.at least now i think so.(now only la)
n the reasons are
...may b its just me...being not faithful enough...and i dint give enough commitment(i love to use this word,learned it from friends series)

when think back,i was too stupid n too naive to start both relationship.
cuz i already knew the problems that i would meet.i dont know which devil made me think that i can overcome those problems.
i dont want to believe bt thats the only reason i can find.love.
bt why cant it forever?then everytg solved.
haha.its easy to say.bt i cant be that irresponsible.i mean the 1st 1 la.im happy its least common in malay society,chinese then indian(all my opinion,no offence)


for malay,the only problem is that they fall in love wif non-muslim.other than that no probelms.its not common coz malay all muslim.unless he/she fell in love wif non-muslim chinese or indian.that also not much prob for them,as the other side is gonna convert!

for chinese.of coz.chinese and malay.many prob.
even chinese n chinese also.im so sorry to say bt i really have seen,christian society(i mean some la) dont want they children to marry or get married to a buddish,taoish or a hindu,and of coz muslim.
like wise,a taoish parents wont want their son/daughter to marry a christian or other religion.

for indian.most severe.esp btw diff cast parents.indian parents are most strict in accepting their in-laws.even a tamilian parents cant accept their children to marry another tamilian which is not up to class.so dont need to talk about the other race to tamilian la.what is worse is they can just gave up their blood relationship and wont allow them to come home,and lost contact with them if they married some1 parents dun like.im sorry.if dont like still ok.if diff cast then canot.i really cant believe its happening in malaysia.a punjabi family just let go a daughter who got married to a tamilian doctor.A DOCTOR!omg.is it that terrible to accept a ew family member from another cast?
bt 1 thing im happy about is that these things are less common nowdays.less common bt still a lot.

conclusion,sometimes,or most of the time,family love can overcome gal guy love.
i learned that a punjabi guy who is not gonna get married to his tamilian gf.coz his parents wont allow.n he love his parents enough not to hurt them,by saying wont get marry her unless they agree bt wont find another gal even if they dont.to me this is like a movie,which im gonna watch what is going to happen,esp on that tamilian gal,who is going to be a doctor also.will update if there're any news.(why i know bout tamilian n punjabi so much?i know tamilian cuz most indian fren i have is tamilian,punjabi n i gt close punjabi fren)

i think im going too far bt its a skill required by a dentistry student to crap in india for final exams.need to crap a lot although not so-related.of coz not those unrelated 1 la.

okie.must apologise 1st.im sorry for my frens IF i got ter-said anytg wrong or bad bout u or ur religion or parents.n pls tell me k?cuz may b i exceed the limit,which i dont think so.haha


back to topic...

2nd gal...my excuse was long distance.she gave me a lot pressure on this relationship n i din release them out.i kept everytg in me till the day i burst,theres no turning bac.
so to my frens...when u r in a relationship,please share ur joy n sadness.if u think that u love them too much n dont want them to know ur pain,u r actually selfish coz u r not willing to share even wif ur love ones.they wont know n dont expect them to understand u.then its ur fault if anytg goes wrong.if u guys share and cant tolerate,then i think its ok to break(in this case la).

i dont think i told any1 bout this.its always inside me.

btw im not emo bout pass la..just that i think bout those mistake i made...till now im scared to get into any guy gal relationship.its not that i wont fall in love.bt im too scared to start and lose anytg.thinking of only starting in this "business" when i know how to make it works.bt notg is perfect.if im gonna wait till that day it wont come.so how?

my guy frens wif gf always tell me,dont try to be involved in relationship.cuz its difficult.bt why they are still in?may b its bcoz of what human call it love...