mayb im hoping alot..or should i say that im hoping too much?
俗语说得好 "期望越高，失望越高"
我现在正处于这样的状态。
one after another said they not going already.i mean goa.
now only 6 of them confirm going.not really comfirm bt almost sure only...wait till they buy the tickets 1st.
n those guys...all mau tak mau mau tak mau...im tired of asking ppl want to go not d...
im sick of it.really really sick of being like an idiot.like im begging ppl to go with me...i was like a travel agent.go n find train ticket...hotels...end up like this.like i have no 1 to go with or i cant travel alone.
now awei said she might not go also.may b last minute will go.so currently im like going alone or following the others who had decide la.
to awei:im not blaming u.dun misunderstood me ok?
fine fine fine...4get bout goa till time comes.dun need to think so much actually.no point.like i said.hoping too much will lead to higher disappointment.if no ticket then go sumwhere lo..
of coz im not blaming any1.they gt their own reasons.its just that im over excited.
its not the 1st time..last year,almost meet up with haridas in bangalore n sdnly he gt uni probs..which later hes forced to quit n end up in russia now.
im tired...of anytg n everytg.
suppose to have only prosto viva today.bt went class n sdnly lec said gt oral histo test n tooth morpho test.tooth carving was okay.one of the best central incisor i've ever carve.oral histo slide was terrible.my weak sub coz need to draw.tooth morpho spotters no problem.viva also did quite ok..i think.
kena played like an idiot.1st prosto viva change to oral histo prac,then change to tooth carving.then sdnly ask us to do viva 1st.then last minute rush us to make us fnsh test today by doing tooth carving n spotters.
fine.after lunch went prosto lab at 8th florr.lec ask us go lecture hall coz said no viva.got theory class.waited there for 15 minutes then ask us go 8th floor coz gt viva again.kena screwed sarcastically by lec.su too wide.duno whre to focus.may b thats the reason i din really study the whole day yesterday.jus flip thru a bit only.
tired tired tired...this is the only word i can say...fnly end up wif cig...my best fren when im down...
oh yea..i gt a rope keychain/phone chain like thingy from a fren.cade.who is unhappy wif me when i said im not going delhi.so nice of her.she said its a frenship like thingy.symbolic gua.duno.bt so nice of her...cheer me a little when in prosto waiting for viva.thanks!(although she wont be reading this)
Monday, September 8, 2008
Friday, September 5, 2008
GOA!!
heard october got 4 days holiday,bt gt 1 day in btw got class la.bt plan to skip the whole week(3 days only...) to go goa!
to be more exact,will go mangalore to meet up wif miss awei 1st...she gt class.have to skip more days...i force her to go la.bt now i think nvm la.pity her.feel bad also..cannot let her learn to skip class like me..lolz
called dad to tell him this,then terlajak say december wan go kerala.he started to
"ngam" me d la.y every month go holiday 1 la(cuz aug go north,oct go goa,nov go msia,dec go kerala)..holiday should study la..bla bla bla...acutally quite true also..hehe..
then of coz he said ok la.haha.cuz i say kerala dun need to go d...bt of coz i will still go la...without permission oni ma...
now the gang going gt 7 ppl.gal gang...
guys...thomas n seelen say if other guy go they go.shawn duwan spend money..probably save for gf...zino duwan skip class..even a single day.n he doesnt want to take train or bus.so duno them yet lah.
so miss awei...if duwan skip class nvm de...was too excited...joking oni actually...
bt if wan go then good la.
plan change a bit.c u online lah!
to be more exact,will go mangalore to meet up wif miss awei 1st...she gt class.have to skip more days...i force her to go la.bt now i think nvm la.pity her.feel bad also..cannot let her learn to skip class like me..lolz
called dad to tell him this,then terlajak say december wan go kerala.he started to
"ngam" me d la.y every month go holiday 1 la(cuz aug go north,oct go goa,nov go msia,dec go kerala)..holiday should study la..bla bla bla...acutally quite true also..hehe..
then of coz he said ok la.haha.cuz i say kerala dun need to go d...bt of coz i will still go la...without permission oni ma...
now the gang going gt 7 ppl.gal gang...
guys...thomas n seelen say if other guy go they go.shawn duwan spend money..probably save for gf...zino duwan skip class..even a single day.n he doesnt want to take train or bus.so duno them yet lah.
so miss awei...if duwan skip class nvm de...was too excited...joking oni actually...
bt if wan go then good la.
plan change a bit.c u online lah!
Thursday, September 4, 2008
gift
erm...any idea what should i give to a girl friend for birthday?
a good friend la...
no idea leh...how how how?
some say perfume...ok la..just a bit expensiv..n duno what type.n this i might giv another gal.i duno.
many told me to bring her to dinner...what!!!
omg im so....dun think so...may b IF worse comes to worse no idea la
a good friend la...
no idea leh...how how how?
some say perfume...ok la..just a bit expensiv..n duno what type.n this i might giv another gal.i duno.
many told me to bring her to dinner...what!!!
omg im so....dun think so...may b IF worse comes to worse no idea la
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
Get to know myself better
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
nice one
try it out!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
*update
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
nice one
try it out!
http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
*update
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
secret...
i nvr talk bout it.bt i will now.
its sometg bout relationship.
well,i had 2 experience on guy gal relationship.or should i say i pakto-ed for 2 times b4?
my mood getting better...so dis wont be so emo ba...
was i an emo guy last time?
i forgot.i dont think so.bt now i m
okie.how to start....
my excuse for breaking up wif the 1st 1 is religion,for 2nd 1 is ldr.
i accepted my excuses for so long d...bt sdnly today,when i was emo-ing again...i realise that i actually lied to myself.at least now i think so.(now only la)
n the reasons are
...may b its just me...being not faithful enough...and i dint give enough commitment(i love to use this word,learned it from friends series)
when think back,i was too stupid n too naive to start both relationship.
cuz i already knew the problems that i would meet.i dont know which devil made me think that i can overcome those problems.
i dont want to believe bt thats the only reason i can find.love.
bt why cant it forever?then everytg solved.
haha.its easy to say.bt i cant be that irresponsible.i mean the 1st 1 la.im happy its least common in malay society,chinese then indian(all my opinion,no offence)
for malay,the only problem is that they fall in love wif non-muslim.other than that no probelms.its not common coz malay all muslim.unless he/she fell in love wif non-muslim chinese or indian.that also not much prob for them,as the other side is gonna convert!
for chinese.of coz.chinese and malay.many prob.
even chinese n chinese also.im so sorry to say bt i really have seen,christian society(i mean some la) dont want they children to marry or get married to a buddish,taoish or a hindu,and of coz muslim.
like wise,a taoish parents wont want their son/daughter to marry a christian or other religion.
for indian.most severe.esp btw diff cast parents.indian parents are most strict in accepting their in-laws.even a tamilian parents cant accept their children to marry another tamilian which is not up to class.so dont need to talk about the other race to tamilian la.what is worse is they can just gave up their blood relationship and wont allow them to come home,and lost contact with them if they married some1 parents dun like.im sorry.if dont like still ok.if diff cast then canot.i really cant believe its happening in malaysia.a punjabi family just let go a daughter who got married to a tamilian doctor.A DOCTOR!omg.is it that terrible to accept a ew family member from another cast?
bt 1 thing im happy about is that these things are less common nowdays.less common bt still a lot.
conclusion,sometimes,or most of the time,family love can overcome gal guy love.
i learned that a punjabi guy who is not gonna get married to his tamilian gf.coz his parents wont allow.n he love his parents enough not to hurt them,by saying wont get marry her unless they agree bt wont find another gal even if they dont.to me this is like a movie,which im gonna watch what is going to happen,esp on that tamilian gal,who is going to be a doctor also.will update if there're any news.(why i know bout tamilian n punjabi so much?i know tamilian cuz most indian fren i have is tamilian,punjabi n i gt close punjabi fren)
i think im going too far bt its a skill required by a dentistry student to crap in india for final exams.need to crap a lot although not so-related.of coz not those unrelated 1 la.
okie.must apologise 1st.im sorry for my frens IF i got ter-said anytg wrong or bad bout u or ur religion or parents.n pls tell me k?cuz may b i exceed the limit,which i dont think so.haha
back to topic...
2nd gal...my excuse was long distance.she gave me a lot pressure on this relationship n i din release them out.i kept everytg in me till the day i burst,theres no turning bac.
so to my frens...when u r in a relationship,please share ur joy n sadness.if u think that u love them too much n dont want them to know ur pain,u r actually selfish coz u r not willing to share even wif ur love ones.they wont know n dont expect them to understand u.then its ur fault if anytg goes wrong.if u guys share and cant tolerate,then i think its ok to break(in this case la).
i dont think i told any1 bout this.its always inside me.
btw im not emo bout pass la..just that i think bout those mistake i made...till now im scared to get into any guy gal relationship.its not that i wont fall in love.bt im too scared to start and lose anytg.thinking of only starting in this "business" when i know how to make it works.bt notg is perfect.if im gonna wait till that day it wont come.so how?
my guy frens wif gf always tell me,dont try to be involved in relationship.cuz its difficult.bt why they are still in?may b its bcoz of what human call it love...
its sometg bout relationship.
well,i had 2 experience on guy gal relationship.or should i say i pakto-ed for 2 times b4?
my mood getting better...so dis wont be so emo ba...
was i an emo guy last time?
i forgot.i dont think so.bt now i m
okie.how to start....
my excuse for breaking up wif the 1st 1 is religion,for 2nd 1 is ldr.
i accepted my excuses for so long d...bt sdnly today,when i was emo-ing again...i realise that i actually lied to myself.at least now i think so.(now only la)
n the reasons are
...may b its just me...being not faithful enough...and i dint give enough commitment(i love to use this word,learned it from friends series)
when think back,i was too stupid n too naive to start both relationship.
cuz i already knew the problems that i would meet.i dont know which devil made me think that i can overcome those problems.
i dont want to believe bt thats the only reason i can find.love.
bt why cant it forever?then everytg solved.
haha.its easy to say.bt i cant be that irresponsible.i mean the 1st 1 la.im happy its least common in malay society,chinese then indian(all my opinion,no offence)
for malay,the only problem is that they fall in love wif non-muslim.other than that no probelms.its not common coz malay all muslim.unless he/she fell in love wif non-muslim chinese or indian.that also not much prob for them,as the other side is gonna convert!
for chinese.of coz.chinese and malay.many prob.
even chinese n chinese also.im so sorry to say bt i really have seen,christian society(i mean some la) dont want they children to marry or get married to a buddish,taoish or a hindu,and of coz muslim.
like wise,a taoish parents wont want their son/daughter to marry a christian or other religion.
for indian.most severe.esp btw diff cast parents.indian parents are most strict in accepting their in-laws.even a tamilian parents cant accept their children to marry another tamilian which is not up to class.so dont need to talk about the other race to tamilian la.what is worse is they can just gave up their blood relationship and wont allow them to come home,and lost contact with them if they married some1 parents dun like.im sorry.if dont like still ok.if diff cast then canot.i really cant believe its happening in malaysia.a punjabi family just let go a daughter who got married to a tamilian doctor.A DOCTOR!omg.is it that terrible to accept a ew family member from another cast?
bt 1 thing im happy about is that these things are less common nowdays.less common bt still a lot.
conclusion,sometimes,or most of the time,family love can overcome gal guy love.
i learned that a punjabi guy who is not gonna get married to his tamilian gf.coz his parents wont allow.n he love his parents enough not to hurt them,by saying wont get marry her unless they agree bt wont find another gal even if they dont.to me this is like a movie,which im gonna watch what is going to happen,esp on that tamilian gal,who is going to be a doctor also.will update if there're any news.(why i know bout tamilian n punjabi so much?i know tamilian cuz most indian fren i have is tamilian,punjabi n i gt close punjabi fren)
i think im going too far bt its a skill required by a dentistry student to crap in india for final exams.need to crap a lot although not so-related.of coz not those unrelated 1 la.
okie.must apologise 1st.im sorry for my frens IF i got ter-said anytg wrong or bad bout u or ur religion or parents.n pls tell me k?cuz may b i exceed the limit,which i dont think so.haha
back to topic...
2nd gal...my excuse was long distance.she gave me a lot pressure on this relationship n i din release them out.i kept everytg in me till the day i burst,theres no turning bac.
so to my frens...when u r in a relationship,please share ur joy n sadness.if u think that u love them too much n dont want them to know ur pain,u r actually selfish coz u r not willing to share even wif ur love ones.they wont know n dont expect them to understand u.then its ur fault if anytg goes wrong.if u guys share and cant tolerate,then i think its ok to break(in this case la).
i dont think i told any1 bout this.its always inside me.
btw im not emo bout pass la..just that i think bout those mistake i made...till now im scared to get into any guy gal relationship.its not that i wont fall in love.bt im too scared to start and lose anytg.thinking of only starting in this "business" when i know how to make it works.bt notg is perfect.if im gonna wait till that day it wont come.so how?
my guy frens wif gf always tell me,dont try to be involved in relationship.cuz its difficult.bt why they are still in?may b its bcoz of what human call it love...
to mr and mrs jupiter
im sick of it...when will u stop?im not that strong to fight against u guys.i lose.can u pls leave me alone?
why cant a guy and a gal just b very good friend?
why must sometg more develope if they are close?
why?why?why?
if these feeling thingy is gonna develope by both of ur "victims" then i think its all right la.bt what if only 1 fell n not the other 1?its suffering!
im still single n i still want to be single.not ready yet for commitment,i guess.
so can u pls pls pls,i beg u,to leave me alone?
thank you
urs faithfully,
...............
(xxx xxx xxxx)
some of the above statement has beed modified to suits more ppl...lolz
*update
jupiter is madarin way of saying cupid.(qiu1 bi3 te4)
bt better than what lelmin said last time..she wanted to say cupid bt end up saying pikachu!
sorry for the misunderstading
im sick of it...when will u stop?im not that strong to fight against u guys.i lose.can u pls leave me alone?
why cant a guy and a gal just b very good friend?
why must sometg more develope if they are close?
why?why?why?
if these feeling thingy is gonna develope by both of ur "victims" then i think its all right la.bt what if only 1 fell n not the other 1?its suffering!
im still single n i still want to be single.not ready yet for commitment,i guess.
so can u pls pls pls,i beg u,to leave me alone?
thank you
urs faithfully,
...............
(xxx xxx xxxx)
some of the above statement has beed modified to suits more ppl...lolz
*update
jupiter is madarin way of saying cupid.(qiu1 bi3 te4)
bt better than what lelmin said last time..she wanted to say cupid bt end up saying pikachu!
sorry for the misunderstading
Monday, September 1, 2008
moved!
dis afternoon after class..went to thomas room n lepak la.on yew jhin's bed.was super syiok.sdnly i think of moving in...n then i moved!
i went bac to room n told my rummate wilson(now x rumate)i wanna move.he din say netg.
then i started to move my stuff over la..slowly...not in 1 go.
bt i feel a bit bad for wilson,my x rumie.duno why.feel like i dump him like that.
may b its ok la...i just think too much
neway.hope will njoy the last helf year here!
i went bac to room n told my rummate wilson(now x rumate)i wanna move.he din say netg.
then i started to move my stuff over la..slowly...not in 1 go.
bt i feel a bit bad for wilson,my x rumie.duno why.feel like i dump him like that.
may b its ok la...i just think too much
neway.hope will njoy the last helf year here!
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